new goals

this is going to be my next goal prize for lousng 27lbs. i canged my goal rom 25lbs to 27lbs. wsh me luck!!

the end of week 3 and the start of week 4

today is the end of week 3 and the start or week 4!i started this week at 296lbs and i weighed myself tonight and I'm at 292! so i lost 4 lbs this week, so all together i have lost 18lbs in 3 weeks, I'm pretty proud of myself! i reached my goal of 15lbs and I'm gonna order my goal prize on Friday!
i think my next goal is gonna be 25lbs, so i have to louse 10lbs. i cant believe i have stuck with it for this long i think its for good!!

monday 2-6-2011

feeling realy good about today! i got 2 workouts in today and i got my son to use the bathroom like a big boy! im feeling good about my weaight inn tomarrow night! im hoping i reach my goal of 15lbs!

the end of week 2 and the start of week 3

today is the end of week to!!i found week 2 to be really hard as far as sticking to my diet and finding the time to workout,but i tryed my hardest and i lost 4 lbs! witch is still really good its not as big as last weeks but im still happy with it i am now under the 300 mark and i havent been there in about a year so im really happy about that. i am now at 296lbs! i have lost a total of 13lbs in 2 weeks, im only 2lbs away from my goal of dropping 15lbs,
i passed my 2 week mark and i still havent given up!! im proud of myself for sticking with it!
the start of week 3, im going food shopping and im goning to get healther foods and all that i and excited to share with you all, i have been having a hard time keping up with my diet journal but i make myself do it just to be able to keep up with everything. so we will see what happens in a week !

goals

i reached my goal of lousing 7 lbs and my next goal in to lose 15lbs and this is what im going to be rewording myself with urdan decay Preen Shadow Box

the end of week one and the start of week 2

week one was really hard but im glad i stuck it out i was 309lb at the start and at th eend i was 300. so i lost 9 lbs in a week im really proud of myself! and im trying to stick with it! week 2 starts today i havent been keeping up with my diet jurnal i have been doing it in my head but i feel better when i put it in my jurnal . i reched my goal and im gonna go get my prize loli think my next goal will be 15lbs!!! i feel so great!!!

day 6

today is day 6 or my diet and workout stuff. im really proud of myself for sticking with it and not giiving up but we will see in about another week non of my other dirts ever lasted longer than 2 weeks so im feeling good and trying really hard everyday, im going to check my weight on wensday (a week from when i started). im not going to weigh myself every day like last time. (i personaly think it adds stress at leat for me it did) but feel ing good and yep

feeling good

i started my lifestyle change today , i got so much need encouragement from a friend last night , and today for the first time in a long time when i woke up this morning i told myself that was beautiful. im counting my calories and ot my workout planned for later and im gonna weigh myself tonight to know for sure what my starting weight it. i picked something new i will be rewarding myself with for my first goal that i reach.

Hard Candy 1,000 Lashes Fiber Mascara blackand the primer, this is gonna be for loosing 7lbs!!! starting out small and im gonna work my way up!

pouring my heart out

i worry about so much stuff its unreal.i see all these weight loss ads on TV and the Internet and i see all the pills and the special drinks and food.(witch none of it works! I'm sick of wishing that ill wake up and have 3 wishes or that i would win the lotto and get a million dollars so i could pay to have that weight loss surgery. I'm sick of my body looking like this I'm tired of not being able to find cloths and i dont want to have to shop at a plus size store anymore they can be so costly.i hate my body i don't like to look a pictures where you can see more than my face. I'm 22 yours old and I'm weight 320, my husband tells me I'm pretty and that he loves me the way i am (and i love him so much) but i want to love myself i want to wake up and not have to worry about how this shirt is gonna fit, if its going to cover my role or and just to feel confident in my skin and like how i look.
some day it so hard to find anything good about myself. something inside me so desperately wants to break and and let me think that this is OK your just meant to be fat but something just refuses and i know its not OK and my body is in trouble if i don't do something now. its hard to find the motivation some days but others its right in front of me.sometimes i feel like I'm the only one in the world with this problem but i know I'm not
I'm just going to have to give it my all and hope that's the best . I'm not going to wake up with 3 wishes or with a million dollars and i cant afford the surgery, so its all on me and it feels like the weight of the world. i guess that is the hardest part is just admitting. its my fault my body is like this and i am the one that has to fix it