that is my meal plan for today. so far so good and im fealing great!
and my flavored water that i drink and my diet pills

9-8-2010 part 1

i feel realy good i just finished one of my 30 minute workout and i have already did a 10min arm workout earlyer today, im a little bit disapointed with my food choices today i could have done better and i know it.i plan on doing another 30min workout before bed tonigt and i plan on starting back counting calories tomarrow aswell. all and all im feeling realy good just a little worried about the food issue. im going to drop my calorie way down to eather 1500 or 1200 not sure witch one yet. i weaghed myself last night and it was not the right number cuz the scale is messed up but its what i haveto work with untill i get a new one.

this is what im going to reward myself with when i loose 25 lbs

9-7-2010

today i start my life change, i just worked out for about 20 minuets usthing this systen i got for my birthday! this is what i workedout with today and im going to workout for another 20 later. i have given up soda except coke zero and i have a little over a pack of cigs left and when they are gone they are gone for good ano i just need to workon the food. i need to make a meal plan or something but i will keep you updated i have set myself a goul for when i loose 25 lbs and i think it will help me stay motavated !

i have always been bad with diets, i try and i do realy good for a bit and then the moment i stop i slide right back into my old habbets, i realy have to find something that realy works for me and its realy hard. sometimes i just feel like a big loser and other times i wish that one day ill wake up and be tin or that some guy will pop up and grant me 3 wishes but i know that wont happen. i am going to have to dig down deep and find it inside myself to become the woman i want to be, i know ill more than likely never be a size 2 but thats it ok with me i just want to be a healther size. and not have to worrie about what clothes i can and cant buy cuz nothing fits right or it doesent come in my size i have thought about some of the medical options out there but i can aford them and or the corrective ones you need after that. its realy up to me and me alone to do this i know its going to be hard and im gonna want to quit but i need to try my hardest. im sick of being like this and i need this

This free digital scrapbook personalized with Smilebox

no one is even going to read this

i just want to get this off my chest i have had a realy bad past few weeks i have lost my only best friend i think i have been depressed and things are staring to finaly pick up i started a diet i feel good im finding it a little hard to stick to it but i know it works cuz i have done it before and it worked and then i just stoped and started back eatting junk but its time for a lifestyle changeim hopeing i can do it iam realy haveing to push myself i havent felt like doing any makeup vids cuz of the depression, i felt like i lost myself and no one cared like i was drowning and there was nothing i could do, yesterday was a realy good day i actualy got stuff done around the house and just felt good but its like it creeps back up on me when im not looking,

my best friend someone i have known for almost 10 years up and cuts me out of her life and replaces me she wasent just my best friend she was my sister she knew me better than anybody and people like that arnt supposto let you down like that and it hurts cuz now i have no friends that i can talk to in person

its been a long long past few days!!! im gonna be learning how to do some realy cool scrapbooking stuff and im realy excited and i need to send in my pics to the dead girl glamoure site so they can put them up, i just havent found the ones i like the most yet. been working on my farm on farmville trying some new stuff i dont know it i like it yet or not but we will see.

i hope my step dad had a great day today being that it is fathers day and all. he has been more like a dad to me that my real father, and for that i am thankful he is a great man and a wonderful grandfather to Adler

i love farmville